Thursday, March 19, 2009

Come On In, The Water's Fine.



Dear readers,

Welcome to Guaranteed Personality.

For over a year, I chronicled my adventures in Paris on this blog.

It was a wild, exciting, rewarding exchange.

In recent months, I have had to focus on other projects in order to, um...eat. :)

Faithful followers have surely noticed the lack of updates.

I have closed up cyber shop for now, but please check in periodically...I hope to be back soon.

To those of you visiting for the first time...please dive into this silly pool and have a swim around ...

I think you may have a good time.

xo Mademoiselle Cuckoo

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Perfect Gift For Your Sweetheart


A hand-tooled, armor-wearing, taxidermy squirrel!

Eat your heart out, Cartier.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

The New Series- Part 2




coughing+pee leaks

bay city rollers

cannellini beans

methuselah

Monday, January 26, 2009

100% True. 100 % Unintentionally Funny.



Introducing a new series... I like to call it:

"Highlights From My Recent Google Searches."


blood in snot
moonshine
knife-like pain under ribs from coughing
caramelized peppers



Sorta like a twisted Haiku, no?

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Today, is a good day.

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Pa Rum Pum Pum Pum

Thursday, December 18, 2008

At Your Leisure


Cleopatra, John & Yoko, Jenna Jameson... all fabulous folks who understood the value of taking care of business from bed.

In my ongoing quest to remain in a reclining position as much as possible during these dreary winter months, I proudly offer you yet another Christmas gift tip:

A bed tray.

Yep, you heard me: a bed tray.

You know, a tray with little legs.

I just bought one, it's divine.

Mine is the ideal size. It holds my laptop, a glass of Jack Daniels and my bobble-head David Beckham doll, just perfectly.

But seriously friends, it's a great gift that harkens back to more glamourous times when women ate bonbons and wore marabou feathers to bed.

Consider it.

So useful, and way cooler than those weird cushions with arms that we all had in college.

Here's a site where you can find an awesome selection of them.

If you live in France, HABITAT has one at 36 Euros. Pricey for a wood tray, 'certes' but still cheaper than a Mercedes Coupe.

And while I am still on the topic of sloth, here's another great gift idea for you.

Too lazy to think about finding something new to wear everyday?

Try American Apparel's Circle Scarf.

28 bucks, a million uses.

Check it out.

Retro, washable, cool.

I bought one. I love it.

It can even be a snood, people!! C'mon who doesn't love a snood??!!

My hair was so dirty last weekend, I wore mine, Erykah Badu-style to the supermarket.

I'm serious. It's da bomb.

Times are tough kids, roll into a little ball, swaddle yourselves, and surf your porn in comfort.

As always, you're welcome.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Pimpin' My Pals






Hey, I feel productive if I manage to work up the energy to bathe.

But my friends, well, they have other ideas about productivity.

Here's a short list of what the cool kids conjured up this year.







MUSIC:

Coralie Clement's Toystore.

Kay Hanley's Weaponize.

Nada Surf's Lucky

BOOKS:

Phil Toledano's Phonesex.

Fabrice Frère's City Photo.

ART:

J.Otto Siebold's Dream Homes and One Song Guitars.

Squirrel of Snooze's Handmade Knit Animals.

Nikolai Saoulski's Photos & Paintings.

GENERAL COOLNESS:

Liane Weintraub's Tasty Baby.

Manu Payet's Au Bataclan.

John Hunt's Oriel Wines.

Galadriel Mattei's Civil Watch Caps.

Sign your friends up to Christopher Atamian's e-cognoscente

All affordable. All made with love.

You may now consider your Christmas shopping officially completed.

Yes, yes, I know. I am too kind.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

OMFG!


I have always been somewhat of a luddite.

Despite being very liberal-minded, and priding myself on being on the cutting edge, I have a tendency to resist embracing technological advances.

It makes for an oddly dichotomous existence.

I try hard to be cool, but my propensity for holding on to the old days often gets the better of me. For instance, I walked around with my yellow SONY sports walkman way longer than could be interpreted as mere hipster irreverence...it just made me look like the crazy lady down the hall, you know, the one with the chalky red lipstick bleeding kookily beyond her natural lip line.

My last cellphone was made of wood, twine and cat bells. I still send handwritten thank you notes, and letters even!! On actual paper, with pen! (remember those!?) Putting a stamp on a letter helps me embrace my inner Amish. I frequently have to resist my unquenchable jones to go to a barn raising.

I even lived without internet at home until two years ago. Seriously. Though it seems unimaginable now that my laptop is plugged directly into my main coronary artery.

Anyway, my new apartment doesn't have a television. One would think that based on the above, that wouldn't be a problem.

Well, it is.

I may not like technology, but I do love burning my retinas with copious amounts of useless, brain-clogging, visual detritus.

The first few days in the flat, I kept feeling like something was missing. It weirded me out not having the eerie toxic glow of that beloved freak box burning perpetually in the corner, like a hearth.

I was jittery. I missed the junk juice.

But despite, the DTs I was experiencing, I held fast. There would be no TV in this apartment. It's France, there is only like one channel available anyway, right? Why bother at all?

Instead, I'd use the time to learn Kurdish, Origami and the slide trombone.

I was doing pretty well until, EVERYONE around me started talking about Gossip Girl.

Actually, the real tipping point came when a friend told me that I reminded her of a character on the show called Serena.

"Aren't all those girls haughty, self-involved, back stabbing, sex-crazed bitches?" I asked.

"Not really...." She replied.

Obviously, I had to check it out, right?

It's like having someone tell you, " You know, you kinda remind me of Hitler, but in a good way."

A few days later, I mentioned to another friend that I needed to buy a TV to watch Gossip Girl, but that I was little anxious because the flat screen ones I liked were a little pricey.

She looked me dead in the eyes and said something as unexpected as "I ran into Joaquin Phoenix yesterday and he asked for your phone number." She said: "You can watch TV shows on your computer. Through the internet."

I was like: "No way?"

She was like: "Are you retarded?"

She then proceeded to tell me that I could also stop crapping in a bucket and washing my laundry by beating it with heavy stones on the riverbank.

Life-altering stuff, folks.

A TV, right here on my lap. That is so friggin' dope.

I'm catching up on everything I've been missing: Gossip Girl, Mad Men, 30 Rock.

Christmas has come early this year, folks! If the world is lucky, I may never leave the house again.

Oh, and by the way, I'm NOTHING like Serena... other than the fact that we're both blonde (haughty, self-involved, back stabbing, sex-crazed bitches.)

xoxo !

Saturday, December 6, 2008

She's Crafty-She Gets Around. She's Crafty-She's Always Down.



TOP TEN RECESSION-FRIENDLY HOLIDAY GIFT IDEAS:

1) DOOR WREATH MADE FROM EMPTY MARLBORO CIGARETTE PACKS: Red, white and gold...so festive!!

2) CUT-OUT SNOWFLAKES MADE FROM USED COFFEE FILTERS: Sepia, stylish!

3) LUMPS O' COAL NECKLACE: Chunky jewlery. Fashion forward!

4) JAR OF BOILING HOT WATER: (To be prepared right before gifting) Thoughtful present with endless uses...tea, coffee, sterilization!

5) PABST BLUE RIBBON POPS: Ice cube tray, toothpicks. Need I say more?

6) SOCK PUPPETS MADE FROM HOLEY SOCKS: Holey. Holy. Get it?

7) HAIRSPRAY-SHELLACKED MASHED POTATO SCULPTURE:
Art, always appreciated.

8) DECORATIVE TIN FILLED WITH GREASE SCRAPED OFF YOUR STOVE: Cherished gift to be used for lubrication and candle-making.

9) KITTY LITTER-SCENTED LINGERIE DRAWER SACHETS: Pussies and Pussies. A match made in Christmas Heaven!

10) BLACK GARBAGE BAG TIED TO A MEAT HOOK: Chic-er than the Hermes Kelly!

Friday, December 5, 2008

Paradise By The Stovetop Light


Meat Loaf.

Awesome.

Seriously.

There's a reason the rocker named himself after the dish...it kicks ass.

I made one last night, for the first time in like 10 years.

Had people over for dinner and figured a 'clin d'oeil' to depression era cooking might be appropriate during these lean times.

Even considered making it a theme for the party: cocktail banter around the glow of a burning garbage can, fingerless gloves for all upon entrance, fifths of Everclear.

I made this recipe courtesy of the Shiksa Jailbird.

Deeeeelish!

Comfort food of this sort is just what you need to fight the winter blues.

It's been so dreary and cold in Paris the past two weeks that I only get out of bed if I absolutely have to.

I'm barely kidding.

In the bath the other day I noticed the stump of a tadpole tail sprouting at the base of my spine.

Seems if you don't use your legs much, you start to devolve.

Anyway, just wanted to remind you all about the joys of meatloaf this holiday season.

It's cheap, yummy, and frankly folks, there's nothing I enjoy more than standing barefoot in my kitchen, buzzed off grain alcohol, kneading freshly ground meat with my bare hands.

You with me?

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Free To Be You And Me


Y'all have probably noticed that I'm pretty hyper.

I have a very difficult time slowing down. Ever.

I fantasize about sloth, day dream about doing fuck all, but in the end, I always end up speeding around like a demon 24/7.

There are many posts on this blog that illustrate that fact.

I realized recently that I was more anxious about feeling guilty about being such a freak, than the actual stress itself.

Anyway, after a million resolutions, broken promises to myself to chill, I have finally come to the conclusion that I need to stop fighting it. That it's simply just the way I am.

I strive on challenge and change and well... that makes for a perpetually nutty existence. End of story.

Which is fine except that if I chose to live this type of life, then I have to stop complaining about it...which is something that I do incessantly.

My darling friends undoubtedly feel as if their last nerve has been gnawed to a bloody pulp by a drunk, overzealous rodent in a blond wig. Moi.

It's like I put a frog in a blender, watch it explode and then freak out about it exploding.

Since I can't seem to stop myself putting the frog in the blender, seems like I am destined to a life of imbibing endless amphibian shakes.

Now, I just have to learn to drink 'em up with a smile.

One footnote though. While 'perpetual crazy' seems to be a state that suits me, I would still like to work on not forgetting to take care of myself a bit better.

The extra dose of stress I carry around tends to be a result of worrying about lots of things outside myself.

I'm the type of person who's day is ruined if the lady at the tabac looks sad in the morning. I am an empath to a psychotic degree.

Sounds like I am just really nice. Not really. Just really neurotic.

So anyway, today is Sunday. And for the first time in about two months, the day wasn't filled with obligations. And well frankly, I woke up anxious. There had to be to be some annoying thing that absolutely had to be taken of today, no?

No.

I looked at my list. It's endless. It looks like the Dead Sea scrolls. I perused it and decided that everything on it could wait until tomorrow.

So I stayed in bed until 11. Listened to NPR online, read, started crocheting a baby blanket for my friend S's new baby girl, wrote this and even found time to pick the scabs off a burn I got on my hand from last week when I was racing to toast bread in my oven and I stuck my mittless hand in there to retrieve it... I did all this quietly, calmly, at normal human speed.

Needless to say I particularly enjoyed the scab picking, but that's for my therapist to deal with, not you.

I'm hoping that if I embrace who I am, everything will fall into place.

For example, I have been talking about starting an exercise regimen since 1989. Never happens.

A month ago, I found my dream apartment. I love it. But it's a fourth floor walk up. On Wednesday, I had a little Obamafest over here. Because I am so lazy, I did all the grocery shopping in one go. Which means I carried 14 bottles of Heineken, 4 bottles of wine and 5 bags of food up the stairs at once.

If I keep this up, you'll be able to bounce a quarter off my rock hard ass within the month.

Pretty cool, huh?

So I guess the new goal is not to rid myself of my flaws, but to get those tenacious bastards to work me.

Anyway, that's the current plan. We'll see how it goes.


So much for not getting personal on this blog anymore.

Another resolution, broken.

See what I mean?

Chilled green froth, mmm...mmm... good.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Damn, I'm Proud.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Election Day




You know what to do. Now, do it.

Monday, November 3, 2008

Wild Wildt


Okay, let's kick off my public show of stupidity, shall we?

First up, Adolfo Wildt (1868-1931).

Never heard of him. Yep, pathetic, I know.

I work in the art world, and yet, my art history...well, weak.

But I make good coffee and I can tie cherry stems with my tongue, that counts for something, no?

Anyway, back to Adolfo. Um, he rocks.

He manipulated marble with such a degree of skill that he made it shiny and opalescent like milk.

And while he approached sculpture in a classic manner, dude was obviouly 'shrooming ever so slightly.

Check out the missing eyes and wacky compositions.

Love 'em.

Christopher Columbus, Eat Your Heart Out!


My favorite thing in the world is discovering new things.

I would have loved to have been an explorer back when parts of the world were still uncharted.

Now, with global geography pretty much taken care of, the only journeys left, are into the mind.

Well, mine's pretty empty. But what's cool, is that I am surrounded by a posse of fabulously interesting and intrepid folks and they teach me something new every day.

Art, random stuff, music, silliness, you name it. If I haven't seen it before and I like it, you'll hear about it.

So stay tuned for daily (okay, maybe that's too ambitious), let's say 'frequent', new discoveries on Guaranteed Personality.

Grab your compass and your machete and let's go!

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Barack n' Roll

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Setting The Record Straight

When I began this blog nearly a year ago, I wrote predominantly for a handful of friends that lived far away. It was a way to keep in touch and have a giggle.

In the year since, I am happy to report that way more people than I ever imagined started reading.

When that happened, I chose to write under a pseudonym to protect my privacy.

Because of the success of this blog, I was fortunate enough to even get some 'real' writing gigs on other websites. Which was wonderful for me, because I love writing and prior to blogging, I never had the courage to share my thoughts with an audience.

However, the internet is vast and super-connected and now, with a few clicks you can figure out who Mademoiselle Cuckoo is in real life.

I have written a lot of personal posts on this site, they have been very cathartic for me, and have touched a chord with others too. I am so thankful to have had that opportunity.

Recently however, some of my posts have been completely misinterpreted. That makes me really sad, and being sad or causing sadness is not the point of this blog. Funny is the point of this blog.

So, to ensure that there is no further miscommunication, from now on, posts on Guaranteed Personality will be a little less personal.

I'll try to find a new voice with which to connect with you.

I'll try to keep writing. Please try to keep reading.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Dope Hope





















In the mirror this morning, I noticed something:

I look like shit.

Sallow skin and huge bags under my eyes.

Christ, I hate those puffy, purple sacks more than liver and brussel sprouts sandwiches.

They are the bane of my existence. No matter how much I sleep, in the morning those bastards are still there.

I cream them, ice them, massage them. Nothing works.

The truth is, deep down, I know to get rid of them, but it would mean giving up something very dear to me:

Smoking.

I have been smoking on and off for years, but last month when I was in the throes my break-up with Mr. X, my nerves were so shot, pretty much all I did was smoke. I got up to about a pack and a half a day.

Folks, I have asthma, a severely deviated septum that generates a cavalade of sinus infections, and for extra shits and giggles, I also have a heart murmur.

In my case, smoking is pretty much tantamount to sticking a gun in my mouth.

Yet, I continue to do it, because I'm kooky like that.

A week ago I tried to quit. Didn't work.

Now, with the new apartment, I'm gonna try again.

New life. New lungs.


Speaking of new beginnings...Guys, for my sake, vote for Obama.

If McCain wins, I'll be chain smoking again.

First Bambi. Now Me.

That's an awful lot of blood on your hands.

Monday, October 13, 2008

Kids Today


ASHEVILLE, N.C. - A 19-year-old Asheville teenager said she legally changed her name to CutoutDissection.com to protest animal dissections in schools.

The Asheville Citizen-Times reported that Asheville High graduate Jennifer Thornburg now wants to be called Cutout. Her new legal name is the Web address for an anti-dissection page of the People for the Ethical Treatment of Animals' site.

The teenager said she began opposing dissections in middle school, after a class assignment to dissect a chicken wing made her uncomfortable.

She is now an intern for PETA. She said most of her family members still call her Jennifer.

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Christ, I don't even know where to begin on this one.

Love,

www.iwishcigaretteshadthenutritionalvalueofbananas.com

Saturday, October 4, 2008

You're Welcome



click here

Thursday, October 2, 2008

The scariest thing to happen to America since MC Hammer's pants...


Don't forget to watch the Vice Presidential Debate Tonight!

Likely to be funnier than "Meet The Parents" and scarier than "The Texas Chainsaw Massacre."

Don't Miss it!

Live on CNN International: Commentary begins at 2am.
Debate at 3am.

For you insomniac boozehounds: The Young Democrats and Young Republicans will be showing it live at:

Carr's Pub
1 rue Mont Thabor
75001 Paris

No invitations needed. The first will arrive around midnight but the main event doesn't start until 3 AM. Sleep Schmeep!

For those of you that can't stay up because you have kids to take to school the next day, or, if you're just pussies...CNN International will rebroadcast the debate on Friday at 10am and 5pm.

From Washington University in St. Louis, Missouri, for the thousands in attendance and the millions watching around the world:

Ladies and Gentlemen......... LET'S GET READY TO RUMBLE!

Monday, September 29, 2008

Kiss, Kiss Darling, call me!




















WAYS TO KEEP YOURSELF ENTERTAINED DURING PARIS FASHION WEEK:

- Play Spot The Pore on Svetlana: Apparently when god was handing out perfect skin, he was floating over Eastern Europe about 16 years ago. Find a model. Look for the pores, look hard. Betcha you won't find one!

-Try not to make eye contact with anyone all week: When engaged in conversation, keep your eyes planted firmly over the other person's shoulder and scan the room for someone more fabulous to talk to. It'll feel awkward at first, but soon you'll find that you've progressed enough to do that AND talk on your cell phone at the same time.

-Attempt to only open your mouth if it's to name-drop or complain: "The food at Karl's intimate VIP dinner to which I was invited last night because Sofia Coppola worships me, was so mediocre!"

-Drink a beer every time you hear an ankle snap: Cobblestones + impossibly high heels= you'll be drunk in 15 minutes.

-Try to find a taxi: You can play this game, anytime, anywhere in town...endless hours of fun guaranteed!

-Try to bed an Italian male model. I say 'Italian' because they usually have a hang up about their mothers and at your age, you want the odds on your side.

-Try to make it through the entire week subsisting exclusively on champagne and cigarettes. By day four, you'll understand why Naomi Campbell smacks her housekeepers.

-When somebody prettier than you asks for directions, shamelessly lead her astray: "Oh the Eiffel Tower? That's near Versailles, here, let me point you towards the RER".


I know. It's like being a pigeon in a pack of flamingos.

Deep breaths. Don't worry, it'll be over soon.

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Goodnight, gorgeous.




Beautiful inside and out, he was.

To make a donation to The Hole In The Wall Gang Camp, please visit:

We'll miss you, Paul!

Monday, September 22, 2008

Crazy Or Just Eccentric? You Tell Me.


Random stuff I did last week:

-Pretended to be Olivia Newton-John in Xanadu and spent about half an hour skating around the apartment in my socks 'dusting' the floor with my feet. Then took off the socks, put one on each hand and proceeded to dust all dusty surfaces with said socks while singing "please mister please, don't play B-17". Then, knotted the socks together and placed them in my refrigerator's crisper drawer.

-When confronted with a chatty taxi driver who wanted to know my life story, true current state of affairs seemed too depressing to share. As a result, there is a sweet Moroccan cab driver in Paris who thinks that I am a Scottish, former cabaret singer, who now travels the world gathering empty cigarette packs for use in research on alternative forms of energy.

-Trimmed my eyebrows with Swiss Army knife mini-scissors while slightly intoxicated.

-Neighbor's cat followed me into my apartment. I spoke to it in Italian. I don't know why, but I did. I don't actually speak Italian. I looked at it and said "Che catzo". Which in my mind meant "Hey cat." Apparently it means "You're a penis."

Verdict?

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Mr. & Mrs. Fish


That up there, my friends, is Dwayne Booth a.k.a Mr. Fish.

In my humble opinion...the most awesome political cartoonist working today.

Isn't he just dreamy?

Does the fact that he makes me wanna change my name to Alison, wear my red shoes and spend all afternoon licking my computer screen have anything to do with my high opinion of him?

Of course not.



Check out his work: Mr. Fish

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Contemporary Fart


Because the last couple of posts have involved a lot of foul language, I promised myself that the next one would be G-rated... my collected musings about rainbows and unicorns perhaps.

But then, on Friday night I went to the opening of the Andres Serrano exhibition at Galerie Yvon Lambert and my plans for a curse-free post went out down the tubes.

Literally.

Ladies and Gentlemen, the exhibit is entitled: SHIT.

And as the Damsel of Dumps, the Lady of Logs...I would certainly be shirking my doodies if didn't give you a full report.

Seminal (pun intended) contemporary artist, Serrano, perhaps most famous for his provocative work "Piss Christ", has now photographed a panoply of poop!

Yay! Christmas in September!

The show features 52, giant, close-up, color photographs of shit. And when I say 'shit' I don't mean 'stuff', I mean actual fecal matter.

Rabbit poop, Chicken poop, Human poop.

The photos sport wink-wink titles like Good Shit, Bad Shit, Bull Shit, Scary Shit, Strange Shit.

Apparently, Serrano started off using his own crap (yes, he includes a scat self-portrait in the show), then moved on to his Dalmatian's doo doo, before heading off to Equador to purloin the rest of the poop. Apparently, shit stealing is illegal in NYC Zoos.

Fear not, the caca is cropped tightly, and while some folks were not amused, there was nary a gag reflex in room.

I think it's fun. Like cloud gazing.

Serrano says he thinks his 'Heroic Shit' looks like the raising of the flag at Iwo Jima.

And I could have sworn I saw Palin's profile in one of the little poop piles.

Anal output afficionados should definitely head on over to the Marais to see the show.

And good news for New Yorkers that dig dreck: Part Two of the show (or as I like to call it: Number 2) is also currently showing at Lambert's Chelsea outpost.

Bottom's up!

Until October 15, 2008
Galerie Yvon Lambert
108 rue Vieille du Temple
75003 Paris


*Image: Andres Serrano, Shit (Jaguar Shit), 2008. © Andres Serrano.

Friday, September 12, 2008

Gather 'round little ones, Mama has something important to say...


I know I'd likely be better off sticking to poop jokes rather than venturing into politics. But my recent break-up has made me brazen. I am an old hat at deflecting scathing jabs now. So bring on the hatemail, Republicans! I can take it!

While you're busy being pissed off at my choice of artwork for this post, I'd like to encourage all American Democrats living in Paris to register to vote and to request an absentee ballot.

Look! The folks at Democrats Abroad have made it easy peasy to do:

Every Wednesday, 5-7 pm. at Brentano's Books
On the Right Bank between Palais Royal and the Opéra
37 avenue de l'Opéra
75002 Paris
Metro: Pyramides, Palais Royal, Opéra

Every Saturday, noon-3 pm. at Joe Allen's Restaurant & Bar
In Les Halles
30 rue Pierre Lescot
75001 Paris
Metro: Châtelet, Les Halles

Every Saturday, 2-5 pm. at Shakespeare & Co.
On the Left Bank across the Seine from Notre Dame
37 rue de la Bûcherie
75005 Paris
Metro: Saint-Michel, Maubert-Mutualité

Every Sunday, noon-3 pm. at Breakfast in America
On the Left Bank for Brunch!
17 rue des Écoles
75005 Paris
Metro: Cardinal-Lemoine, Maubert-Mutualité

Remember, if you don't vote for Obama, it's like you're killing Bambi.

Want that on your conscience?

Didn't think so.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Get Thee To A Nunnery


Guess what kids? Just had my heart broken. Big Time.

I am too old for skateboarding, Fruit Loops and hoodies, but apparently one is never too old to have a guy rip your fucking heart out, season it with salt, drop it in the grinder, spread it on toast and eat it raw.

Ouch.


Rather than going on a rant about how unfair this all is and how shitty I feel, let's try to turn that frown upside down and be productive, shall we?

Here are some tips for handling a break-up:

1) Vent. It's healthier than keeping it inside. Instead of muttering to yourself in the supermarket while violently tossing items into your cart, write him a letter. I wrote Mr. X many heated, vociferous letters. Never sent them, but they really helped me process my feelings and get my anger out, which leads me to...

2) Stay cool. We had some great, cathartic, break-up talks. I was dying inside and frequently wanted to reach across the table and stab him in the eye with a fork, but I just sipped my wine and talked it all through with him calmly.

Stay elegant, ladies. You're awesome. Don't stoop to his level. Ever.

3) Friends. Friends. Friends. I had a few bumpy days in which I channeled Glenn Close and sat on the floor in a dirty t-shirt, clicking the lights on and off, weeping, and listening to opera. The last thing I wanted to do was to go out, but thank god my friends are an army of Gandhis and wouldn't take no for answer. They are extraordinarily generous, patient and determined and perhaps most importantly, they preach non-violence, which is a good thing because if not for them I would be in jail right now comparing notes with Lorena Bobbit.

4) Be good to yourself. I put myself through hell. I got so worked up, my gums were bleeding. I wish I was kidding. He's hurt you enough, don't hurt yourself more. Hairshirts are no longer in fashion. Throw yours out.

After all this, needless to say, I seriously considered joining the order, or perhaps going over to Ellen and Portia's for tea and scones.

But in the end, no. I am an eternal optimist.

I feel confident....2, 346th time's a charm.

Saturday, September 6, 2008

Recently Released Information From The Ministry of Sweeping Generalizations


LONDON (Reuters) - Fans of classical music and jazz are creative, pop lovers are hardworking and, despite the stereotypes, heavy metal listeners are gentle, creative types who are at ease with themselves.

So says Professor Adrian North of Scotland's Heriot-Watt University who has been studying the links between people's personalities and their choice of music.

In what North said was the largest study ever conducted into individuals' musical preference and character, researchers asked 36,518 people from around the world to rate how much they liked 104 different musical styles before taking a personality test.

"Researchers have been showing for decades that fans of rock and rap are rebellious, and that fans of opera are wealthy and well-educated," North said.

"But this is the first time that research has shown that personality links to liking for a wide range of musical styles."

The study concluded that jazz and classical music fans are creative with good self-esteem, although the former are much more outgoing whereas the latter are shy.

Country and western fans were found to be hardworking and shy; rap fans are outgoing and indie lovers lack self-esteem and are not very gentle.

Those who like soul music can take heart as the research concluded they are creative, outgoing, gentle, at ease with themselves and have a high self-esteem.

And if you've ever wondered why people driving expensive sports cars often have music blaring from their vehicle, North could have an explanation.

Those who choose to listen to exciting, punchy music are more likely to be in a higher earning bracket, he says, while those who go for relaxing sounds tend to be lower down the pay scale.

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Really? Wow. Groundbreaking stuff, Professor North.

You surveyed 36,518 people from around the world to come to these conclusions?!

Well, I surveyed the whole entire universe, and we think you should be spending your study time more wisely.

Instead of wasting hours trying get a Cowboy to open up about how dedicated he is to his job and Shania Twain, please consider spending next semester trying to figure out how we could put an end to the following :

Global Warming, Famine, Sarah Palin, Communicable Diseases.

I think the Unviersity would agree, plus don't want to have to watch you go from riding around in your Maserati blasting 'Pump Up the Jam' to listenting to Enya while forlornly picking at the worn suede elbow patches on your favorite sweater.

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Hi Honey, We're Home!


You already know that there are many reasons why I love living in Paris.

The low flying diarrhea-addled pigeons, the perpetually grey skies, the jovial and helpful folks over at Noos Telecom, the dog poop that dots the sidewalks randomly yet consistently, almost as if someone had skipped along tossing brown, shit-scented rose petals from a stinky basket made of dog ass.

It's awesome. After 4 years of daily study, I can now identify a dog's breed by merely glancing at it's excrement. Pretty cool, huh?

Oh just kidding, Frenchies! Relax. You know that je vous adore!

My true favorite thing about living here is the 'rentrèe'.

After the month of August, during which Paris is so deserted it looks like a scene out '28 Days Later', on September 1st, the city comes alive again and hits the ground running for a new season of mirth and madness.

I got home a week ago, so I got to watch the transition. It's really fun. Like being backstage before a play opens and then running around to the front, and taking a seat in time to see the curtain go up.

Also, because I am THE hugest fan of new beginnings, I love that here, you get two chances at fresh starts (Jan. 1st and Sept.1st).

And most importantly, because I am the most immature 40 year-old on the planet, I deeply dig the back-to-school feel of the thing. I can pretend that I am in grad school, eternally working a Masters in Life or something.

By end of August, I can't wait to get back and sharpen my pencils and see what new adventures are in store.

"Diego, I would love to have another Mojito with you, but this string bikini is starting to chafe my butt, plus, I gotta get back to Paris in time for the rentrèe. Am I working? No, just need to get back so I can run headlong into a brick wall and learn something from it."

Anyway, my fellow Parisians, welcome back.

Good luck for the new school year. I hope you ace it.

Pencils ready?

Go!

Thursday, August 28, 2008

One Month Off...Ten Things To Report:


1) Delta Airlines Sucks: Saddling up, bare-assed on a drunk mule and galloping down a steep ravine, would certainly be less painful than flying this airline.

2) The Dark Knight: I get a papercut and take to bed for a week. I want whatever Harvey Dent is on that allows him to walk around and laugh heartily with half his face burned off. Gimme some of them little helpers. Now.

3) I look better with a tan. Makes my nicotine stained teeth look whiter.

4) I am no longer able to digest raw onions.

5) Have mastered walking and chewing gum at the same time, but talking while driving is another matter.

6) "Hello Officer, why you look just like Erik Estrada! No, I am not being a smart alek. Oh wow, no more old-school handcuffs? You guys use zip ties now. Cool."

7) Summertime: too moist-making for me.

8) Still can't play guitar but had a dream about playing Knick Knack Paddy Whack on Phelp's abs.

9) Sometimes, I'm kind of an asshole.

10) Have started using OB tampons in support of my candidates!

Obama-Biden '08! Woo Hoo!

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Kinda like Ferris Bueller breaking the 4th wall after the closing credits



Are you still here?

I've got one last thing for you before I go 'borrow' Cameron's dad's car, pick up Sloane and head out.

Little piece I just wrote for IVY PARIS

Later.

Monday, July 28, 2008

Back of my neck, getting dirty and gritty


















Well it’s nearly August, kids.

That wonderfully lazy time of year when all of Paris collectively hangs up a gigantic “Gone Fishin” sign and gets the heck outta Dodge.

The locals flee, the shops close, and the poodles howl their loneliness in the deserted streets.

Since I too, am officially a local, I will also be closing up my cyber shop for a few weeks.

Because I am concerned about your calcium intake and want to be sure you get your monthly quota of cheese, I wanted to take this opportunity to thank you all for reading and for all of your wonderful comments and unconditional support this year.

This blog would simply not exist without you.

Yes, I am talking to you. And you. And you too.

Meet you back here at the end of next month….meantime, don't do anything I wouldn't do. And as you know, that gives you a heck of a lot of leeway.

Go nuts!

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Suiting Up


Folks, my ass is not my best feature.

Now, I know I can't complain too much, I am one of those lanky types... tall and thin.

But still, the ass. Bad.

Flat and flaccid.

It's my own fault, really.

The last time I exercised, it involved dodging a ball and Jimmy Carter was in office.

I bring this up because I am going away this weekend and for the first time this Summer, I'll have to wear a bathing suit.

Now, I'm not a particularly vain girl in general.... ok, so I have a teeny obsession with my hair and getting it the correct shade of faux blonde, but other than that I am pretty laid back about this stuff.

I don't care about wrinkles, I wear very little make-up and I have been known to go to work without taking a shower, and yet... I have not allowed anyone to get a direct, full view of my naked ass. Ever.

That includes boyfriends.

I allow side-view, and partial view, but I have never let anyone watch me walk away in the nude.

Now, the guys are never aware of this fact. I am the Harry Houdini of rump concealment.

I drape sheets more effectively than the Greeks and I keep caged doves on hand, to release when necessary, as a diversion.

Anyway, in preparation for the partial public nudity I will be forced to succumb to in Provence this weekend, I took a long hard look at myself in the mirror this morning.

Good God.

First off, I'm so pale, I had a hard time differentiating myself from the sink. That was until my eye caught sight of a bruise the size of Rhode Island on my upper right thigh.

Great.

I contemplated my options, the most tempting of which consisted of slapping on a beehive and pretending to be Amy Winehouse all weekend.

But I hear that there will be kids at the house and I don't want to be remembered as the crazy, nightmare-causing American, so off to the tanning salon I went.

Now, in France this is perfectly acceptable. Tanning salons here do not have the Vegas stripper/Britney Spears connotation that plagues the ones back home.

Here everyone does it. They call it 'preparing your skin for the sun.'

Kinda like how they call smoking 'preparing your lungs for the death.'

The French, when they want to do something, even if they know it's bad for them, they spin it into something positive in order to get away with it.

Who do you think convinced the medical community that a glass of red wine per day is actually beneficial to your health?

Wake up people!!

Anyway, I spent 10 minutes in the fryer and now I look exactly the same, but beige.

But in the end, who cares, right?

I once had a boyfriend whose back I had to shave every weekend. Didn't bother me one bit. Loved him all the same.

Let's embrace our flaws this Summer, shall we?

Things are hard enough without getting nutty over the silly stuff.

On a completely unrelated note, I spend 15 Euros at the butcher on four lambchops that turned out to be totally tough and inedible. Pissed me off.

Could have put that money toward a boob job.

Thursday, July 3, 2008

Making Your Own Fireworks


(Associated Press) LUBBOCK, Texas - A slice of cool, fresh watermelon is a juicy way to top off a Fourth of July cookout and one that researchers say has effects similar to Viagra.

Watermelons contain an ingredient called citrulline that can trigger production of a compound that helps relax the body's blood vessels, similar to what happens when a man takes Viagra, said scientists in Texas, one of the nation's top producers of the seedless variety.

Found in the flesh and rind of watermelons, citrulline reacts with the body's enzymes when consumed in large quantities and is changed into arginine, an amino acid that benefits the heart and the circulatory and immune systems.

"Arginine boosts nitric oxide, which relaxes blood vessels, the same basic effect that Viagra has, to treat erectile dysfunction and maybe even prevent it," said Bhimu Patil, a researcher and director of Texas A&M's Fruit and Vegetable Improvement Center.

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Happy Fourth of July Weekend, everyone!

See you in the produce aisle!

Monday, June 30, 2008

There's No Place Like Home


Things are particularly cuckoo in Cuckooville these days.

Who knew that living across town from my usual stomping grounds would be so destabilizing?

Don't get me wrong, Rue Mouffetard is lovely, I can almost smell Papa Hemingway's pipe on my way home. Charming. Really it is. No really.

And yet, I feel so sequestered here that I constantly battle the urge to don an iron mask and crouch in the corner of the living room.

For some odd reason, though I have lived in Paris for years and pride myself on being inquisitive and adventurous, I never come to this part of the 5th arrondissement. Ever.

I know nothing of this 5th. Here, I don't even feel like I am in the town that I live in anymore.

I am Alice through the Looking Glass. Dorothy in Oz.

I get off work, get on a bus (it's true!) and head up the Montagne Sainte Genevieve towards the distant shores of my temporary 'home'.

Once safely inside, for fear of glimpsing Prince Caspian and Aslan having a pint down at the local pub, I just hole up in the flat and do weird things.

Like watch S's old DVDs.

Did you remember that there was a porn scene in Basic Instinct?

All I remember is the leg crossing and uncrossing. Turns out Michael and Sharon go at it like rabbits. He even goes downtown.

It's gross.

Last night, I wrote a pop song. In French.

Don't ask me why. I have never written a song before. I have never written in French before.

Perhaps it was the sound of drunk adolescent Spaniards loudly celebrating their historic soccer victory that inspired me to pen a gallic love ditty.

Just before sitting down to write this, I looked at my shoes for half an hour.

They're all in a big duffle bag, and they started to weird me out, all jumbled together in there.

I was like...shoes. Shoes are strange.

Heels.

Why would I put my foot in that? I mean, in high heels you're basically just tip-toeing around with a little prosthesis for support.

Why do we do that?

Then, I played with my new computer's video chat function.

I talked to my friend E. Saw her even. She's in LA.

She picked up her laptop and showed me the Pacific waves.

Wicked cool shit.

Anyway, just wanted to check in and let you know what I've been up to, and in answer to your question...

No, I have not been smoking the Mary Jane.

But I will admit to having spent the greater portion of the evening on all fours digging through that shoe bag, looking for my Ruby Slippers...

Monday, June 23, 2008

Stiff competition, but I think I can take him


(Petaluma, California) – A Florida dog named Gus captured the hearts and votes of judges at the 20th Annual World’s Ugliest Dog Contest held at the Sonoma-Marin Fair in Petaluma. Rescued from a bad home and now suffering from skin cancer, he has no hair, only three legs (one amputated because of the skin tumor) and is missing an eye lost to a tomcat in a cat fight.

Gus was adopted through word of mouth after it was discovered that he was being kept in a crate in the garage of someone’s home.

Said his owner, “I’m just in shock. We came so far and are so happy that we can put the winnings towards Gus’ radiation treatment. We’re just thrilled.”

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Ugly, sick and pathetic wins you this race?

Hey Gus! Enjoy the limelight while it lasts, you canine catastrophe!

Next year, that tiara is mine!

Sunday, June 22, 2008

No Phone, No Pool, No Pets


You're aware of that weird phenomenon, right?

You know... how hairdressers usually have bad hair, make-up artists sometimes look like a box of crayons has exploded onto their face, and stylists tend to dress like Carnies?

Funny how so many of us can be really great at something when doing it for someone else, but when it comes to ourselves: not so much.

Case and point: I organize things for a living, yet my life....a mess.

For example: since I moved to Paris in the Summer of 2004, I have lived in 4 different apartments. Yes, four.

All were furnished rentals and because they are always semi-full with other people's stuff, there is no room for all of mine.

So, get a load of this: half my stuff, four years later, is still in storage in NYC.

This is the one time I am really happy about being terrible at math. Keeps me from adding up all the money I have wasted these past four years.

Yet, something tells me the total would likely add up to something along the lines of: two hundred and fifty thousand...asshole, you could be living in a chateau right now if you knew how to make a decision, but instead you've blown all your cash on keeping your cardboard boxes air conditionned for nearly half a decade...dollars.

Anyway, I bring this up because furnished rentals tend to be short-term rentals, which is why I have to keep moving.

And today, I have to move again...for three weeks.

Yeah, you heard me. Twenty-one days.

The flat owners are coming into town for a vacation, and I must move all my crap (shoes, clothes, Star Trek memorabilia, Dutch porn) out and then back again.

You see, back in January, I rented this place for 6 months, thinking for sure, that six months down the road I'd be ready to make a commitment and get myself an empty apartment, furnish it, and commit to living in Paris.

But, here we are. And, no.

I am still making like a tramp, tying my belongs into a bundle, affixing it to a stick and hitting the road.

And I repeat, this has been going on for four years.

This morning, as I once again wrapped my porcelain monkey collection in toilet paper for protected traveling, I was overcome by the startling realization that at some point in the last 10 years, I had gone completely insane.

I am 40 years old and I have basically been glamourously camping since I was 36.

It may sound fabulous, but kids, it's not.

It's unsettling and weird and it's gotta stop.

Because of my moronic inability to commit to anything, this time, I very nearly found myself on the street, but thankfully, my friend S, hero that he is, is lending me his place for my 21 day exile. His abode in the Latin Quarter will be my Elba.

Alone. Cut off from the Right Bank. I will turn inward. Ponder. Push forward.

I plan to spend most days lying on the floor gorging on Cadbury fingers and chilled rosè in an attempt to attain a trancelike state. I am hoping I'll have some kind of vision quest-y breakthrough and work up the gumption to finally lay down some roots...or at least commit to an Airstream of my very own...

Baby steps.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

This Is A Public Service Announcement


Do not, under any circumstances, ingest copious amounts of champagne on an empty stomach and then proceed to ingest two Big Macs in rapid succession on the walk home before crashing face down on your bed.

Also...Vienna Sausages: No.

I know, they're yummy and you get nostalgic for them, but no.

They are evil little processed meat bullets disguised as cocktail treats.

Walk away. Trust me.

xoxo
Mademoiselle Cuckoo (typing from a reclining position on her bathroom floor)

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Souvenirs & The City


I finally got to go see the Sex & The City movie this afternoon.

I cried through the entire thing.

Ok, I know... you're rolling your eyes. I read the mocking reviews too. Yes, I agree, the plot is thin, the product placement thick, the supposedly witty zingers are dull.

But if you stop at all that, you're missing the point.

You see, for some of us, it's so much more than just a movie.

Everyone knows the series was a global phenomenon, striking a chord with single city girls the world over, but unless you were a single, 30-something woman living in New York City at the time, you can't possibly grasp what all this means to us.

Back when the series was on the air, each week, my girlfriends and I would be glued to the TV.

How did they do it? How did they get it so right?

We listened to conversations that felt directly transcribed from our lives, watched situations unfold that perfectly mirrored our own experiences.

Carrie, Miranda, Charlotte and Samantha became our friends.

They validated us. They explained to the world, better than we ever could, the inner turmoil and emotional challenges we modern women, faced.

Now it's years later, and they're back.

Don't dismiss it as fluff. Try to understand.

Toss aside the designer duds, the off-color jokes, and the extravagance, and you're left with something deeply real.

Sure, they talk about clothes, and sex and men, but the message that really stands out is: friendship.

And that is why I was so moved.

The joy and daring and laughter that made us identify with these characters in the first place, has evolved, as it has in our own lives, into something more profound.

Turns out life isn't as sweet and cool as we had hoped. lt ain't no endless Cosmopolitan, that's for sure.

For all the ups and downs, victories and disappointments in my life, it is my circle of women friends that has sustained me.

The movie captures that powerful devotion, that magic bond. Perfectly.

For many of us, these friendships are our only constant. The only thing we can truly, always, count on.

My girlfriends know me better than I know myself, they have held me up, pushed me forward, comforted me when times were tough.

I hope beyond all hope, that they feel I have done the same for them.

Because unlike the women up on the big screen who speak their gratitude so eloquently...

I will never be able to find the words to convey the depth of my thanks.

Saturday, June 14, 2008

Culture Vulture: MARCO PEREGO


Like your Disney served up with a side of gore?

Then 29 year-old, Italian artist Marco Perego is the guy for you.

Fabulous large-scale canvases exploding with color, giant gumball machines filled with hundreds of little skulls, kid's toys spray painted gold so that they shimmer like ingots.

What a show!

Last week, Vladimir Restoin-Roitfeld and PC Valmorbida commandeered the Nikki Diana Marquardt Gallery on Place des Vosges and gave Marco Perego free reign to create a funhouse of the best possible kind.

Perego's work features childhood icons, but don't let the candy box colors fool you.

His inspirations range from W.S. Burroughs to Henry Darger to Alexander the Great to philosophical musings on selling one's soul.

Blowing in and out of the City of Lights like a glamourous hurricane, the show was only up for three days.

What a tease!

Doesn't matter though, because as with any good first date, you know right away...and folks, I'm in love.

Pretty much all the work sold out the first night...looks like the rest of Paris is smitten too.



To learn more about Marco Perego visit:

www.marcoperego.com

Friday, June 13, 2008

Free Fallin'


Once upon a time there was a Princess who had worked insanely demanding full time jobs for 20 years. When she turned 40, she felt she owed herself a break and decided that it would be a good idea to spend a year working freelance.

She imagined 12 months filled with joy and relaxation. Countless hours spent doing whatever she liked...pedicures, beers for breakfast, licking Ryan Gosling's picture on the cover of the "Half Nelson" DVD, tenderly biting the inner arm of the cute waiter at the cafè down the street whenever he leaned over to pour her Perrier...and every once in a while, doing a little work.

Ha.

Perhaps the Princess should have looked up the definition of 'freelance' before embarking on above mentioned adventure.

free·lance
n. also free lance
(may cause dichotomous tremens- excessive shaking/sweating, as when riding a rollercoaster)

1. To sit around picking scabs, bored to tears, panicked about cash flow, waiting for phone to ring.
2. To juggle sudden influx of 5 jobs at once, overcome embarrassment of wearing an adult diaper because you don't even have time to pee, learn to sleep standing up like a horse.

Folks, the phrase 'Feast or Famine' was coined to describe the life of a freelancer. Of this I am certain.

Last week, I made you a promise that I would get back to regular posting.

The very next day, I started a new, week long freelance gig and... poof... the 7 days in between disappeared more quickly than Nicole Richie's baby weight.

Kids really, forgive me, it's been a nutty week. I worked non-stop. The whole time. Vraiment.

I was in perpetual motion and so wiped out, that a few nights, I even slept in my clothes like in the good old days, when I would crawl home shitfaced from those discotheque thingies.

Today on my lunch break I had rollerblades surgically attached to my feet, because I simply could not bear to walk another step. Ever.

But despite all that, it was a hell of a lot of fun, and that's a nice change from the death and destruction which pretty much summed up the rest of my month.

Anyway, I am struggling to figure out how to organize my life so I can actually go out and do stuff again.

Wouldn't it be nice if I were able to entertain you with something other than increasingly ridiculous analogies about how tired and stressed I am?

I can do this! I can master this crazy dance!

Nothing and no one's gonna stop me.

"Nobody puts Baby in a corner!"

Thursday, June 5, 2008

Gotta Keep On Keeping On


Woke up this morning with an urgent desire to be wrapped in a swaddling cloth, held tight and be fed unlimited amounts of whiskey with a baby bottle.

Unfortunately, this seems to be a frequently recurring fantasy of mine.

Wish I would wake up to the vision of Paul Bettany in his boxers feeding me grapes instead, but no.

Stress makes you regress.

Anyway, this latest spate of drama seems to be at a close.

My Grandmother's funeral was Tuesday. All family members have now retreated into their respective camps, and as of this morning, I will attempt to resume regularly scheduled programming.

Because things have been pretty much non-stop anxiety and activity since just before the Hong Kong trip, I have had no time to do anything other than focus on the crap sandwich that had been laid in front me. I tried to keep my chin up and keep all the balls in the air, but folks, trust me, there was no leaving the table to go play in the yard until I had finished every last crumb of that hefty poop treat.

But it's over now, and I'll be doing my damndest to turn the page and get crackin' on some happy happy!

But, if you're looking for me today, you're out of luck.

I am having what GLAMOUR mag would call a 'me' day.

In case you're interested, here's the list of tasks that I drew up for myself:

-Wake up

-Remove pacifier from mouth

-Drink a Bloody Mary

-Do a victory lap around the apartment in my underwear shouting "I am an Obama Mama!" at the top of my lungs.

-Answer doorbell, reassure octagenarian next door that all is well.

-Take advantage of current unkempt state to do some kick-ass karaoke. Tie scarf to umbrella (which will be used in lieu of a microphone), sing Janis Joplin's "Piece of My Heart" in front of the bathroom mirror. Once finished, proceed to shave overgrown armpits, brush tangled hair, take shower.

-Floss and then gargle for 45 minutes in an attempt to eradicate 'sour cream and onion' smell of Pringles potato chips that have been sole source of nutrition for last 6 days.

-Go to tanning salon. Attempt to temper grayish-green cast that has been slowly spreading over skin. To achieve this look, please see above, and add cigarettes.

-Eat something that grew in the earth.

-Sit, staring quietly, at pile of laundry. Ponder consequences of dousing with lighter fluid and setting aflame.

-Intermittently check phone in anticipation of more bad news.

-Do a few tequila shots and go get YSL tattooed on my ass.

-Remove curtains from windows, fashion a dress, traipse around like Scarlett O'Hara in 'Gone With The Wind', supress giggles like Korman would have, and remind self that "After all, tomorrow is another day."

Monday, June 2, 2008

Monday Mourning


Am still dealing with family stuff.

Don't give up on me, okay?

I promise to resume regular posting soon.

Meantime, please entertain yourselves by drinking a six-pack, spinning in a circle with your eyes closed and then attempting to replicate these finger puppets with implements found in your desk drawer.

Monday, May 26, 2008

My Respects to Madame H.


I hesitated before sharing something this personal. But decided to go ahead.

I think she would have liked it. She was an attention hog. Just like me.

My grandmother passed away this weekend. She was ninety-two.

It's complicated to explain mourning someone that old. People will say: She lived a long, full life. It was her time, etc.

Both are true, and I am reconciled with the notion that it was time for her to go, but still, I will miss her tremendously.

My grandmother was an extraordinary woman.

Sharp of mind and quick of tongue until the end.

I shared everything with her. Like girlfriends, we would chat and giggle over tea at her house on Sundays.

It wasn't a chore, like... 'Ugh, gotta go visit Grandma..' It was a pleasure.

She was a sports nut and furious at Zidane for losing us the World Cup. She was fascinated by the elections in France last year, and hoped to live to see a woman win the Presidency. She thought Rafael Nadal was hot.

She was patient, caring, non judgemental, funny as hell, extraordinarily modern in her vision, and unwaveringly supportive of her kooky, unmarried, 40 year old grand-daughter.

She ALWAYS had my back.

When I was little, and sugar was banned, she kept a trove of chocolate and cookies for me in a little low cupboard only she and I knew about.

As a teenager, she let my friends fill her house, sit at her table, make noise, talk back, knock things over... she loved it. She loved youth and optimism and life.

In my thirties, when it became abundantly clear that I was the black sheep of the family, despite surely wishing I would settle down, she always respected my non-traditional choices.

I want to publicly thank her for that life-altering display of unconditional love.

In the last years, because she couldn't leave the house anymore, she was kind of like a Pope. She would sit in her giant armchair and we would come pay homage.

She didn't like the smell in her house, but she'd even let me smoke.

Through the haze of my Marlboro Lights, I would smile at her strong determined face, her intense, smart eyes. Eyes that would always surprise me by welling up when she said goodbye to me before I left on a trip.

Irrationally, she worried that she would never see me again. That I would never come back.

In the end, it is she that took the trip that would separate us forever.

In body only, of course.

Because she will forever be in my heart.

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Risky Business, Indeed.



Well, well, well.

Very pleased to see that everyone played nice during my absence.

I got home and found everything pretty much as I had left it.

Just a strange hairline crack in my beloved crystal egg, and a Bob Seger CD in my stereo.

Odd.

Anyway, the Hong Kong trip was amazing.

I believe my colleague E and I deserve some sort of award, or at least shiny tiaras, for cramming an inhuman amount of sightseeing into a business trip.

We basically never stopped moving for the 192 hours we were there. E walks faster than any other biped I know, so most of the pictures I took on the trip, are of his back.

We worked all day, every day, except for the day we arrived and the day we left. Yet we managed to see nearly every corner of Hong Kong and Kowloon and even squeezed in a trip to Lantau Island.

We rode the MTR, the Star Ferry, the Tram, the buses, and he even talked me into the most vomit-inducing ride of my life on the Ngong Ping 360.

Though it sounds like a particularly challenging Kama Sutra position, it is, in fact, a cable car.

The mother of all cable cars actually. The bitch is perched thousands of feet above waterways and mountains, and is just about the most terrifiying experience I have ever had.

Ugh see, that's why this post is so hard to write. I wanna make you laugh, but how can I make jokes about being scared on a ride or eating squid balls or discovering the existence of spas for cats, when over 50,000 people lost their lives a few provinces away from where I was standing.

We didn't feel a thing in Hong Kong. We were very lucky.

Still, the earthquake was so devastating, all jokes feel simply unacceptable.

Even for me, The Queen of Unacceptable Behavior.

I don't know what kind of images they were showing on western news, but folks, the destruction is unimaginable.

China is a beautiful country, populated by discrete people who will push forward nobly in the face of this huge adversity.

You won't hear the locals complaining, they will quietly be taking care of their own.

But I urge you to keep focused on the people of Sichuan Province.

There are many websites dedicated to relief efforts.

Please help in any way you can.

Saturday, May 10, 2008

Mi Lang Yu



Kids, don't panic...but Mama's going on a trip.

I am going to Hong Kong tomorrow, and I'll be gone until May 20th.

I will be working non-stop, so my guess is... there will be no blogging.



Because I'm a massive hypochondriac and a neurotic freak, you can entertain yourselves by imagining me doing loopy in-seat yoga stretches on the long trip over in an attempt to avoid those pesky life-threatening blod clots.

You may also enjoy picturing me wearing a surgical mask to fend off the SARS and Purell-ing my hands incessantly.

Planes are massive, creepy, airtight germ farms. No one will ever convince me of the contrary.

Oh, and in case you're wondering...the title of this post is my name in Chinese.

Because beyond being a freak, I am also a dork... I typed my real name into an online Chinese name generator and that's what came out: Mi Lang Yu or Yu Mi Lang, if you put the last name first, Chinese style.

I like it.

Certainly an improvement over the last time I messed with the internet and took a test which informed me that in a past life I had been a monkey named Oompa.

Anyway, try not to go all Lord of the Flies on me while I'm away. I don't want to come back here and find Piggy dead and all your faces painted in animal blood.

Take care of yourselves.

And remember.... "If you can't be good. Be careful."

Friday, May 9, 2008

Insert Your Own Joke < here >


(Associated Press) WOMAN PREGNANT WITH 18TH CHILD


"Michelle Duggar, age 41, has been been pregnant for more than 11 years of her life.

The fast-growing family lives in Tontitown in northwest Arkansas. All the children — whose names start with the letter J — are home-schooled.


Chores — or "jurisdictions" — are assigned to each child.

"The boys spend time changing tires, working in the garage, mowing the grass," she said. "The girls cook supper from start to finish, clean the bathrooms," among other chores.

The Duggar children are Josh, 20, Jana, 18; John-David, 18; Jill, 16; Jessa, 15; Jinger, 14; Joseph, 13; Josiah, 11; Joy-Anna, 10; Jeremiah, 9; Jedidiah, 9; Jason, 7; James, 6; Justin, 5; Jackson, 3; and Johannah, 2, Jennifer, 9 months."

____________________________

Stop looking at me like that!

I didn't say ANYTHING...

Just sharing the news is all.

However, I would like to send my support to poor 14 year-old 'Jinger' who sure got the shit end of the 'J' name stick.

Thursday, May 8, 2008

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Culture Vulture: NELSON LOSKAMP



Holy crap you guys, it's a Springtime miracle!

All my obsessions rolled into one: art, hairdressers, music, cute boys and sado-masochistic duct-taping!

"Nelson Loskamps’s Electric Chaircut is an interactive, electro-sonic, hair cut performance.

After a brief consultation, volunteers are taped to the chair. Their eyes and mouth are also taped to symbolize the fetishism of appearance.

The volunteer’s hair is then cut by Nelson, the original master of electro-sonic hair design.

His various implements are amplified, scissors and clippers wired to effects pedals, slung round his waist, and blasted through an amplifier strapped to his back. The whacking haircutting sounds reverberate in a trance like cacophony of seemingly random patterns, as the true stylistic nature of the volunteer is released.

Originally conceived in San Francisco, Nelson’s Electric Chaircut has been performed world wide since 1989.

Cosmoson and Paris Experimental Sound present Nelson Loskamp and his Chaircut at La Bellevilloise, May 11th at 6pm."

Sunday tea with Aunt Ethel or watching Blondie Scissorhands shear a hostage to a techno beat?

The decision is easy:

La Bellevilloise
19-21, rue Boyer
75020 Paris
Metro Gambetta

Monday, May 5, 2008

Fashion Cents


I am many not so great things, but a label whore, I am not.

Despite having worked for years in industries where fashion labels are a status symbol, I have not succumbed to that particular siren’s call.

I like to think it's because I have astonishing will power or am too cool for fancy trends, but really, it’s because I am cheaper than expired eggs.

The bulk of my wardrobe consists of items from H & M, ZARA and other carefully selected fleabag shops at which I have unearthed preciously inexpensive good-looking rags.

This is not to say that I don’t like to look fashionable, I do. I just like a good bargain more.

That said, every new season, l still end up stocking up on a load of new stuff. Inexpensive or not, it adds up to me hemmoraging buckets of cash.

This year, as most of you know, I have had to do some belt tightening.

Because I always make supremely wise decisions, I chose to have my mid-life crisis in Paris in the midst of the US dollar’s most epic freefall in decades.

Genius, I tell you. Genius.

For those of you in a similar penny pinching predicament, there is some good news.

Folks, we all have clothes in our wardrobes that we never wear.

When money is not an issue, we buy and buy, and throw it all in a drawer, forget it’s there and go back to wearing the same damn thing everyday.

Yet the stores, and their pretty window displays always entice us to buy more. We take the bait even though we never wore half the stuff we bought last year.

Pavlov would be proud.

This season, I decided to approach it all differently.

I flipped through a pile of fashion magazines, but instead of looking at the items and ticking them for purchase, I looked at HOW they were being worn, then I went back to my closet and realized that I already had versions of these things that just needed some new mojo….to be tucked differently, or belted, or slung in a different manner, or perhaps layered, to be turned into this season’s epitome of cool.

Suddenly, my clothes have taken on a new life. I am wearing things that I bought three years ago and people, they look good.

Really folks, mass consumption is overrated. You’ve already got the stuff, no need for more.

That said, one or two new items to freshen up the lot, does lift one’s sartorial spirits.

I have allowed myself a pair of braided flat leather sandals -29 euros (mostly because my feet sweat more than pigs fleeing slaughter and last year’s pair have basically turned into mulch), a crinkly black cotton scarf -6 euros and a bright cotton bag from American Apparel- 26 euros.

Existing wardrobe + three new accessories, for a total of: 61 euros = new Spring look!

Before you go buy that 10th black tank top or that 5th flowery dress, take a peek in your closet, my bet is you've already got pretty much all you need.

Play dress up, try it all on, mix and match, reshuffle! Put on some music, even set up the video camera if you’re feeling nutty. Every classic romantic comedy has a scene like this, there’s a reason for that…it’s fun.

And then you can spend that money you saved to do something that you really lov…….wait, I’m sorry, I hear clinking behind me…

…Oh, Mr. Jack Daniels, it’s you. Yes, I know, I love you too… I’ll be right there darling.

Saturday, May 3, 2008

My Horoscope: Frighteningly Accurate


SCORPIO

"You like your coffee straight out of the bag, eaten with a spoon. You may have actually snorted Chock Full o' Nuts at one time in your life.

You take your paranoid beatnik approach to life very seriously.

Many Scorpios have found ways to successfully smoke in the shower.

Your number-one grudge is about never having been abducted by aliens, or being the victim of a government conspiracy.

Your master plan for world domination will never work because it involves you at the helm.

Scorpios use expletives to describe philosophical concepts.

It's no wonder that Halloween falls smack in the middle of the Scorpio range. This is the only time of year when fake hauntings, sugar-induced hysteria, and impersonating Dr. Who won't get you arrested.

Scorpios have strong sex drives, because it gives them yet another opportunity to smoke.

Scorpios have much advice to give on matters that are of no concern to them."

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

New Lingo


Faithful readers already know how I feel about rock n’ roll.

Mama likey.

You also know that I am open to new sounds, as evidenced in a previous post about jazz.

In addition, I also enjoy classical music. Particularly when I am trying to fall asleep.

Oh stop it! I didn’t mean that in a snarky way, I actually find it very soothing.

When I am lying awake late at night, fighting the demons, the classical stuff, it magically helps lull my brain into slumber.

However, ‘World Music’ is another matter.

Say those two words to me and I cringe. It’s juvenile I know, but I just do.

I associate it with patchouli oil, hackey sacks, and college kids driving dad’s Beemer while dreamily recounting their life-altering Spring Break in India.

At the first sound of a pan flute, a sitar, or a congo drum…I run in the other direction.

But.

I recently met a lovely guy who is all about ‘WM’ (sorry can’t type it again, still makes me gag a little).

He is an encyclopedia of distant sounds. I have rarely felt more narrow-minded and stupid than when he and I talk about music.

He’ll be like, “Have you heard the marvelous instrumental piece by Mkkkrlrlleello Kaaaaaattgahi?”

I am like, “Say what?”

Or, “Honestly, the authentic Andean flute rings so much truer than those crafted out of non-indigenous bark, don’t you think?”

Gulp.

My musical chit chat usually goes like this: “Paul Simonon was the sexiest of the three Clash, no? “ or “Did I ever tell you that my ex-boyfriend has a piece of Stiv Bator’s chewed gum preserved in a strip of duct tape, pretty cool huh?”

Apparently not.

Whenever I say stuff like that, he stares at me blankly before doing a pained reach for the check.

I am kidding. Actually, it’s been pretty nice. He teaches me all about the sophisticated stuff, while I play air drums with the cutlery, mess up his hair and show him my scar from when I broke my hand in a mosh pit.

Yes, obviously, I come out the winner in this relationship. Poor guy.

Anywhoo, as a reward for his putting up my retardedness, I got us some tickets to a concert.

It was a ‘meet halfway’ kind of deal. I didn’t have to wear floor length tie-dye and he didn’t need to bring ear plugs.

We went to see a South American singer named: Melingo.

Holy Argentine Tom Waits, people!

This guy has the mojo!

He’s, I dunno, maybe about 50 and kinda like the Keith Richards of Tango music. If I was a betting woman, I’d say he was drunk during the entire gig.

It was awesome.

Turns out he has a rock n’roll past, which I SWEAR I didn’t know when I booked the tix. But you feel it in his music, in his voice, which is battered and hoarse but outrageously beautiful.

It was without a doubt one the best musical evenings I have spent in a long time. The guy is fabulous, puts on one hell of a performance. A cross between Marcel Marceau, a mobster and Iggy Pop.

He got 3 standing ovations. He did 3 encores. No one wanted it to end.

Take a chance, stretch your auditory limits. I sure am glad I did.

Other than the simple fact that it’s ear opening, the best thing about this…okay, okay I’ll say it…WORLD MUSIC is that’s completely transporting.

Simply go to the concert and off you go…flying through the notes to distant shores.

Cheapest way to travel that I know of.

Bon voyage!

MELINGO currently on tour. Catch him if you can.
www.myspace.com/melingo

Sunday, April 27, 2008

French Kiss


About 8 years ago, an old pal of mine turned 30 and hosted a two-day Bacchanalian birthday extravaganza in the countryside near Rome. It was a truly unforgettable experience filled with scavenger hunts, black-tie parties in castles and poolside drinks. On the last day, he took over the small town square for a luncheon at which he roasted a pig. A marching band appeared, and we sang Happy Birthday and danced in the streets. Upon departure, I half-expected to be handed a commemorative gold coin, minted by the town, to mark the occasion.

The people I surround myself with, they are not fans of moderation.

I am also the type that has a hard time saying no and adhering to sane limits. I never want to miss anything. I like do to things big and loud.

Fun for sure, but also crazy making.

Looking back on the past two stressful weeks, I think my nerves were so frayed because of course, as usual, I had way too much on my plate, but also, I was unraveling because I had no quiet time. At all. None.

The city was rainy and cold, every task seemed challenging, I was frustrated and tired, there seemed to be no room for anything but aggravation.

This weekend, thankfully, peace finally found its way back to town, and restored my sanity.

Saturday morning, we Parisians awoke to bright, warm sunshine. If you have ever endured a damp winter here, you know how exciting this is.

I opened the window, still in my nightgown, and felt the sun on my face. I looked up at the sky and half expected a choir of angels to sing down upon me from the heavens.

Sweet relief.

Cutting it damn close, with just a few days to spare, the mythic ‘April in Paris’ had finally made its entrance.

Worried it was an illusion, I didn’t even shower. I wanted out of the house. Now.

I called my friend S. and she had the great idea to go to the Jardin du Luxembourg.

The Luxembourg garden is one of those places that Americans fall in love with when they first come to Paris. It is so magical they can’t quite believe that it exists and even better, that they are fortunate enough to find themselves standing in the middle of it.

But after a while, they become locals and move to the other side of town where the rents are more affordable, they get embroiled in the daily business of living, and they sometimes forget that the Jardin is just a metro ride away.

Yep, that’s me I am talking about up there. I am the stupid American who forgot about the Luxembourg Gardens.

Moron.

Anyway, as S. and I entered the park from the St. Germain side, a warm breeze gently lifted the tips of my hair. Almost instantly I felt a lump in my throat.

I am not much of a crier, but beauty, folks, it moves me.

The tulips were in full bloom, the miniature sailboats had unfurled their handkerchief sails in the main ‘bassin’. In the distance you could hear the Summery sound of laughter mixed with racquets hitting tennis balls. You know, that satisfying clip-clop, almost like horses hooves.

We pulled two chairs together so we could prop up our feet. We shared an apple, got sunburned, laughed, smelled the butter and pickles wafting over from someone else’s sandwich. I sneezed from the freshly cut grass.

We watched a little girl cry hysterically as her father tried to talk her into a donkey ride, while another boy, sat regally on his beast looking like Napoleon heading to battle.

And then today, again. Warm. I woke up with my hair sticky on my wet neck. Kicking off my heavy down comforter, before even pulling open the curtains, I knew it was another perfect day.

I knew the neighborhood folks would be dotting the edges of the canal a few steps from where I live, sharing a bottle of wine and dangling their feet over the water.

Again, I couldn’t wait to dive into the city. My city.

Because I first came here for 3 months, nearly 4 years ago, people back in The States often ask me when I am coming home.

During the damp, impossibly dreary, rainy days of winter when I am trapped indoors and NOOS telecom makes my life a living hell, I feel like I can’t get back soon enough.

But on glorious weekends like these, when the weather waves its magic wand over the city, illuminating it with indescribable energy and beauty… turning it into a heaven on earth, I am tempted to answer:

Never.

Friday, April 25, 2008



Oh calm down, you know I'm a Feminist...but this was just too damn funny to pass up.

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Gosh, and to think I was pissed when my bike got stolen...


"KINSHASA (Reuters) - Police in Congo have arrested 13 suspected sorcerers accused of using black magic to steal or shrink men's penises.

Rumors of penis theft began circulating last week in Kinshasa. Police arrested the accused sorcerers and their victims in an effort to avoid the sort of bloodshed seen in Ghana a decade ago, when 12 suspected penis snatchers were beaten to death by angry mobs.

"I'm tempted to say it's one huge joke," Oleko said.

"But when you try to tell the victims that their penises are still there, they tell you that it's become tiny or that they've become impotent. To that I tell them, 'How do you know if you haven't gone home and tried it'," he said.

Some Kinshasa residents accuse a separatist sect from nearby Bas-Congo province of being behind the witchcraft in revenge for a recent government crackdown on its members.

"It's real. Just yesterday here, there was a man who was a victim. We saw. What was left was tiny," said 29-year-old Alain Kalala, who sells phone credits near a Kinshasa police station."*



*(God knows, when something's wrong with my lady bits, the first person I think to share it with is the random guy who sells phone credits down the road.)

Sunday, April 20, 2008

'ello Luvies


I’m back.

This is the longest I have ever gone without a new post.

Sorry. I know it was scary.

I just saw the Times headline announcing that the deviation from my usual frenetic blogging pattern had caused a global panic.

That the world’s collective breath hold, in anticipation of what I might do next, had somehow caused a tear in the time/space continuum, that was threatening the future of human existence.

God knows I have enough problems without the extra weight of being responsible for Armageddon.

It is indeed, tough, being the one chosen to ward off End of Days, but it’s a role I take seriously, so just to make sure everything keeps on keeping on, here’s a recap of what’s been going on in my idiot life since Tuesday:

I went to London.

The accumulated stress from the past week finally exploded and propelled me across the Channel.

Yep, when the going gets tough, the tough go drink pints.

As a result of this trip, I have had an additional spate of sleepless nights, thankfully these were due to revelry and not stress, and it seems as if the worst of this episode is FINALLY over.

The ‘I Prefer To Be Drunk All The Time Because It Helps Temper My Hate For NOOS Telecom’ Tour is now on its last leg. It culminated late Saturday night, when, after 2 1/2 claustrophobic, non-smoking hours on the Eurostar, because I still have no technology at home to keep me entertained, I ended up at a friend’s house, ‘jamming’ until 4:30am.

‘Jamming’, means my musician friends played their respective instruments beautifully and sang Beatles songs like angels, while I lay on the living room floor, fighting the spins and intermittently shouting out random lyrics.

This is what it sounded like:

Everyone else, melodically: “You say you want a revoluuuuution…well, you know…”

Me, cutting in drunkenly: CHAIRMAN MAO!!

Totally pathetic.

Anyway, all this is to say that I am now officially so tired that operating heavy machinery would be ill advised.

In fact, it’s probably even dangerous for me to be typing this. I am so fuzzy, dehydrated and out of it, that with my luck I’ll accidentally type a series of letters that end up being North Korea’s nuclear deployment code or something.

Anyway, I had a great time in London and was planning to write a long, informative post about the city’s awesome art scene, but because my head feels like a plate of bangers and mash right now, and I need to get horizontal immediately, that’s not gonna happen.

Instead, I’ll leave you with a commemorative poem I have scripted for the People of London:

Roses are red
Violets are blue
Thank you for coining
The word: ‘ Loo.’

Your tea is great
Your weather sucks
And everything in your damn city
Costs major bucks

That being said
I saw some celebs
Which was a real hoot
Almost makes me forgive you
For taking all my loot

Fish and Chips
And pints of beer,
Enjoyed them all
But am happy to be back here!


(I know. Just when you thought I couldn’t embarrass myself more, I surprise you with poetry. I’m generous like that.)

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Dharma Bum


So, remember all that stuff I've been telling you about all the progress I have made taming my psycho personality these past few months?

You know, all that patting myself on the back stuff... how I can barely reach the high shelf in the supermarket from the cross-legged, Zen, lotus position my newfound calm keeps me perpetually locked in?

Well, it's a good thing that I didn't go ahead and get that 'Mellow Yellow' tattoo.

Turns out, I was only doing better because I hadn't been confronted with any stress.

Folks, this week, stress came knockin' and cuckoo came rockin'.

Without internet or a phone at home... working, blogging, planning a business trip, interacting with my friends back home on a number of projects, even just calling my Mommy to cry, became gargantuan challenges.

This resulted in my brain deploying the stress troops, DEFCON 1 style.

For the past 6 days, I have been nuttier than a pecan pie.

Because I don't have an office to go to, I have been going from internet cafè to internet cafè, operative word being 'cafè'.

Imagine if you will: a hummingbird hooked up to a constant caffeine enema.

C'est moi.

I am so hyper and hopped up on the cocoa beans that even Juan Valdez, was like "Later for you, Miss. Cuckoo!"

Last night, in bed, I felt like I was in a Japanese horror movie. I was lying on my back sweating, eyes closed, but my pupils were ricocheting back and forth under my eyelids like pucks in a particularly vicious air hockey game .

I got word yesterday that my personal communications center will not be back up and running until April 21st.

Yep, you heard me.

It's a long story. I'll spare you.

Anyway, I'm going to take my own advice and push forward.

This is just a little hiccup on the road to Nirvana, people.

C'mon, if Keanu Reeves can channel Siddhartha, how hard can it be?

I have faith. Bad habits are breakable. Enlightenment is right around the corner.

Deep breaths... slow that heart rate... visualize a posse of cute skateboarders caressing me with a thousand feathers...

Om.

Sunday, April 13, 2008

RADIO SILENCE: Day 5


Tips on how to survive a weekend at home with no phone, no TV, and no Internet access...

1) HOW TO MAKE PLANS TO HAVE DINNER WITH A FRIEND:

-Use skills you learned watching MacGyver to capture pigeon pecking unsuspectingly at the geraniums in your window box.

-Fashion a teeny ankle purse out of an old sock, insert dinner invitation, affix to pigeon.

-Make some tea, relax, push the gag-inducing ‘there’s a flying rat in my house’ thoughts out of your mind.

- Have serious tactical discussion with the pigeon. Pore over map of Paris, discuss shortest routes, and show it recent photo of intended target.

-Sign documents promising to wire funds for above mission to pigeon’s offshore bank account as soon as communications are operational again.

2) HOW TO KEEP BUSY:

-Gather all the droppings that pigeon has crapped all over your living room.

-Grab a blank piece of paper. Saturate with glue. Sprinkle pigeon poop all over it.

-Step in front of bathroom mirror and practice repeating, “I swear it’s a Jackson Pollock” over and over, until you sound convincing.

-If you attain sufficient believability, you will succeed in selling the poop art for a high enough price to make back the money you paid the pigeon for the mission detailed above.

-Yes, this is rather evil, but not as evil as feeding bacon to a pig.

3) HOW TO GET NEWS OF THE OUTSIDE WORLD:

-You can’t. You’re fucked.

-Attempt to lift your spirits by painting your toenails cherry red.

-Get drunk off the 10 year-old bottle of Midori you found in the back of your kitchen cabinet.

-Stare intently at the modem and attempt to will it back to life.

*(Mademoiselle Cuckoo could no longer bear the silence at home. She filed this report from an internet cafè, while breathing through her nose, as someone's stray toddler coughed all over her keyboard. She wants her home internet connection back more desperately than she wants world peace.)